Katy applied for our model call. In her words, it was a "what the hell, it couldn't hurt" kinda thing. Later she said that she didn't expect to get picked at all (which is what everyone has said so far, lol). It was an immediate yes for us. Her reasoning sold us completely on the idea and we wanted to help her in her mission to educate people that just because she's in a wheelchair doesn't mean she's not sexy. She is HELLA sexy! As shown in the photos. ;) What was your biggest fear before the session? Did your fear come true, and if not, what happened instead?
Since I was picked for the "model call," one of my big worries was actually disappointing Jen & Max. I feared they wouldn't get what was wanted and/or needed from the shoot. I have the inner cynic that most women have about what they dislike about their bodies (my nose is too big, I'll never have a flat stomach, I have the legs and hips of a 12 year old boy), but then being paralyzed brings another load of flaws and self confidence issues to worry about. I stalked...uhmm, I mean, scoured ;) their Facebook, website, blog, & pinterest leading up to the appointment. When I looked at the gorgeous women and their bowed backs and long-legged, high heeled feet arched just so, I had distinct moments of "Oh God, this is never going to work." "They are going to wish they went with someone else." "I'm going to look so stupid" But it did work... 200 times better than I could have imagined. Jen & Max are fantastic. I never felt inferior or limited in posing. Even in the one or two times I had to say I didn't have have the balance for something, or that position wasn't going to work, there was no awkward hesitation. It was a quick "no problem," and off to the next direction. I loved that they didn't simply ask you to pose. Oh, how laughable those pictures would have turned out. They guided me through the process seamlessly. It was a lot easier to get out of my own head and listen to their directions than I thought. Following their cues helped to shush the voice that said 'You probably look like an idiot' or 'how big is that extra pudge of skin right now.'.
Being in a wheelchair my entire life, I've gotten an array of comments about myself from people. Most of it is well intentions, some strange, some borderline impolite. It's hard not to let insecurities take over when someone wants to "heal" you outside of a movie theater, been asked if you had friends on more than one occasion, and told "You're hot but in a wheelchair." I feel like society sometimes has a hard time recognizing me as an adult, much less as a real woman. Problem is, people aren't even trying to be mean. Even without factoring in the otherworldly perfection of supermodels and celebrities, when is the last time that someone in a wheelchair has been portrayed as sexy or simply physically beautiful in the media? The foremost reason for stepping out of my comfort zone to apply to the model call and doing the shoot was to prove to myself first and then others that there was an inner vixen lurking inside along with the inner cynic and inner dork. It's oddly foreign to describe myself as a vixen (with a straight face no less), but Jen & Max found one somewhere with their lens'. I wanted to broaden people's views on what and who could be viewed as sexy, and with the help of everyone at the studio it was a mission well accomplished.
Do it! Do it now! Do it yesterday! Don't wait until it's a valentines or pre wedding gift for the guy in your life, do it for you. Every girl should skip high school & college graduation photos, and do this instead.
From the moment you get there, the focus is on you but not so much that you feel like a bug under a microscope. And can I please live in a world where everyday I only have to get up and brush my teeth because someone else is going to do my hair and make up? You're going to be nervous (less so once things get started) and feel silly. That's okay. Don't let that take over having fun though. It's okay to stop and laugh. Somehow it's a lot less awkward taking clothes off in front of people you just met with a camera than strangers at a doctors office. It's because they don't just point a camera at you and say go. They give direction, and ask your opinion, and move around and hum with the music. They're nice, real people. Things are going to feel over the top, but if a man can strike a sexy pose less than two feet from his wife then you can at least try to imitate it. The session feels like five minutes but at the same time I was so surprised when it was over that something so amazing only took an hour and a half. Then after your shipped off to lunch you come back to see the pictures. It's nice that they take out all the eyes closed, in mid-sneeze looking shots before showing them to you. I stared at the screen wondering how that could be me. You're not so made up and photoshopped that you don't look like yourself. It's was me, but the me I pictured in my head when trying to channel sexy. Seeing visual proof of that mental image is 400% better than expected. You're pretty much going to want every single picture. Also, schedule something to go do after the shoot because you leave feeling like a million bucks, you're all dolled up, and you're dying to tell someone what just happened.
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